DISCLAIMER: This is a long post. But please read it and give me your HONEST opinion, because I could really use it…along with some words of encouragement because I feel like shit. Thanks in advance.
Well, I’m sad because I’m single. But I’ll get to that in a moment. School started 4 days ago. Because of my breakup with my boyfriend (Which happened to be on the same day as school), needless to say, I was flustered and not focused. I was unable to concentrate for a long period of time without exploding into tears. But after some ice cream & alcohol, I’m doing okay.
I want to do good this semester, especially since it is my last semester, ya know? I want to put my best foot forward. I’ve decided I’m going to focus on
Oh, good news, my business got a loan! For $950! Not much, but it’s the first loan I’ve ever gotten because I made $10K last year, which let me qualify for a loan. I’m so excited. I’m really going to make it last and work for my tutoring company.
But back to the breakup: I got my hair done 2 weeks ago, and it was beyond overdue. I thought my
boyfriend ex would understand that I needed to get my hair done. I’m black. We get our hair relaxed/permed every 6-8 weeks. I was going on about 11-12 weeks! Almost a month past due. I looked a hot mess. But
My ex is very insecure because his previous girlfriend cheated on him. So he’s paranoid that I was/will do that to him too. But I try to explain this to him: I’ve been cheated on by EVERY SINGLE GUY I’VE EVER DATED! *Which makes me feel like SHIT.* But my point is, I understand what it feels like to be cheated on…and the pain, hurt & anger that one feels due to that…so WHY THE FUCK (excuse my language) would I want to cause that kinda pain to someone else? I don’t understand. I would never do that! The way I see it is if I no longer want you, or are no longer attracted to you, I’ll just break up with you before I cheat on you…plain and simple!
Anyways, so I got my hair done. That was strike one I guess. Strike two: he came to my house while I wasn’t home (I was at work. We have keys to each other’s houses) & there was a black dress that my MOM gave to my GRANDMA to give to me, and my grandma got this dress during the course of the 4 DAYS that I was with my ex at his house, so I had NEVER seen it before–not to mention, it wasn’t even in my room! My grandma had it folded and tucked AWAY in a chair at the kitchen eating area. Which means he was snooping to have found it.
Strike Three: when I was at his house, I was texting under the covers because his house is FREEZING because he has no heat. So when he asked me why was I under the covers with my phone, I told him the truth: I’m texting my best (female) friend Brittany, and I didn’t wanna take my hands out from under the covers because I was cold AF.
This dress can’t fit your grandma so I know it’s yours
DUDE. REALLY?! Please be honest with me people (if you’ve read this far down) Am I suspect? Does that seem rational? His conclusion? Like..do I seem like I am cheating? If you were him, would you come to the same conclusion? I got upset. I think I was entitled to
Anyways…so he broke up with me. And I haven’t spoken to him. He has to
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